The Shoes of The Fisherman

 Republished from 2016 "Change Agents Hall of Fame" blog

“For I the Lord do not change; therefore you, O children of Jacob, are not consumed."-Malachi 3:6

Famous picture of John Paul II with the book
"Meditations on the Tarot" on his podium
from:angelqueen.org

The incumbent Pope, Francis, is considered a progressive. Since the Bible, which used to be considered the playbook for people considering themselves Christians, states that God is unchanging, how can His representative on earth be "progressive"?

Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever. - Hebrews 13:8

Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change. -James 1:17

This Pope trivializes sin, believes in Darwinism and space aliens, rails against "fake news" and generally panders to the PC powers that be. He is supposedly beloved of the people for his warmth and humility, but I'm not feelin' it, and I'm definitely not seeing it on video. For your perusal, a playlist with a few highlights from the Pope's antics and pope related news
over the last few years:

*Play List  The Pontiff

*I do not necessarily agree with the views expressed by the broadcasters included in this play list, I am including their reporting as a matter of public record. I apologize for any swearing that viewers may be exposed to.

May Day

 As we near Beltane - a high occult holiday - May Day, May 1st, those who rebel will do their rituals, the mainstream will mention it in clever news clips, and the body of the church that is aware of the occult significance of it will pray against it, or at least be wary of it.

History of May Day - Maybe people remember the original Wicker Man (NOT the Nicolas Cage movie), in that film, they show the young girls jumping over the fire to make themselves fertile. This was showing a May Day rite, also referred to culturally, jokingly as "the Rites of Spring," a sanitized way of saying it is a fertility season where people are going to mate like animals, conceive children and eventually give birth. This has nothing to do with romance, love, marriage or any modern concepts we apply to the animal nature of fertility and mating when it is without God. Satanists exalt the animal nature of man while denying the spiritual essence of man. 

Having been involved in the occult, and witchcraft, which I daily renounce through the Grace of God, I remember that there is a hierarchy in witchcraft, for instance, covens have a "high" priestess and priest. Witchcraft is not considered particularly sophisticated, sorcery, which is more the domain of men, is where the real adepts are, where the real power resides. It is my opinion, observation, call it what you will, that sorcery, being perverted and using sexual perversion to fuel its practices is ruled over by principalities of homosexuality, perversion, witchcraft and pharmacia, is mainly a hierarchy of men and at its core homosexual, and only tolerates witches, who are mainly women because it needs to use them to generate power, the way a battery generates energy through the combination of positive and negative charges. Sorcery runs on the same polarity and must have both the positive  (men) and negative (women) poles in order to raise the energy they need to be effective.

If it weren't for this factor, women would never be allowed into occult circles or practices. Since they are only being used to further the occult aims of an occult elite, it was eventually devised for women to do more to socially advance the occult agenda. Hence feminism, wherein women were encouraged to rebel against Almighty God, and the "patriarchy" - a drummed up historical take on the fact that early men, being of greater physical strength and not limited by having to bear or raise children did most of the nuts and bolts tasks of civilization, including ruling over it. Feminism was used to destroy the nuclear family, create the pro-abortion "Our Bodies Ourselves," movement, promote and further the agenda of a homosexual culture, scramble gender identity, raise and educate children to be selfish, idolatrous and rebellious, turn women from motherhood and pair bonding with a mate, and finally to create a goddess worship ethos within popular culture where women celebrated and worshipped the goddess, i.e., feminine principle within themselves, when not overtly worshipping an actual pagan goddess taken from an ancient culture. Feminism promoted the fertility goddesses of old and encouraged us to look to the ancient arts for wisdom and understanding, forgetting to mention that the ancient arts are almost always part of the dark arts; that is what they were meant for.

What does all of this have to do with May Day? The origins of May Day - a big pagan celebration where children danced around a pole (representing the phallus or male polarity)  and girls were instilled with fertility imaginations,  is still feeding the same old fertility cult and demons (Baal was male) using culture and  traditions to indoctrinate another crop of humans into the roiling, toiling world of not knowing our true God, Jesus Christ. The fact that it is always around the same time as Easter is not an accident, as the secular celebration of Easter is all about bunnies and eggs and candy and FERTILITY.

Triad of Sepsis

"That which is looked upon by one generation as the apex of human knowledge
 is often considered an absurdity  by the next..."
--Paracelus (1493-1541)

Who is to say what the "real world" is or is not? Certainly not me. However, since I have been a resident of the physical human habitat for 50+ years, I feel that I have a right to comment on the concept of human reality, and to opine on the state of both my individual reality, and reality at large.

If you've read this blog previously, even if you are of the opinion that I may be, at worst, insane, or at my best, a half-cocked, conspiracy expert wanna-be with delusions of intellectual grandeur, you will have to admit that I am a serious student of the forces that work upon human consciousness as it relates to our world.

This brings me to my current topic. The Triad that I refer to is made up of Crowley
(sigh, yeah, I know, I know, I have one note), Jung, and HP Lovecraft, a union which later gave birth to other notables (whole other topic) such as Aldous Huxley, Terrence McKenna and Arthur C. Clarke. Not Philip K. Dick, or George Orwell, however. I believe they were burrowing into a different reality tunnel that was begotten of a different stream, altogether.

By seeding his texts with his own nightmares, Lovecraft creates an autobiographical homology between himself and his protagonists. The stories themselves start to dream, which means that the reader too lies right in the path of the infection. - Erik Davis, from Calling Cthulhu, HP Lovecraft's Magick Realism

Lovecraft died in 1937, at 46, of cancer.

I read my Uncle's Lovecraft paperbacks when I was in middle school, What I remember is that they were way over my head, boring to a pre-teen, and that the language was mostly unfathomable to me. Yet I continued to read them anyway. I knew Lovecraft's long, wordy descriptions were meant to show something unsettling and disturbing, but I couldn't, in my child's mind, figure out what it was that he was actually saying. Anyone who has read his work, may relate. Later, when I was a bit older, I saw the movie The Dunwich Horror with Sandra Dee, and was also confused by the queasy subtext (highly satanic, very sexually perverse) of that movie. More recently I saw some Lovecraft TV on You Tube; it was a little clearer. Contemporary screen writers have been able to translate his writing to video, and the real horror comes across in a huge way.

 I remember being 11 years old and sitting in the "wayback" of the family station wagon sedan, driving to a family vacation spot, and reading a constant rotation of Lovecraft books, Archie, Angel and the Ape, and Batman comics. I now realize that Archie contained references to the American bloodline family, the Cabot-Lodges. Archie's arch-enemy was Reggie - Reginald Cabot Lodge, a consummate snob and stereotypical entitled rich kid, who lived in a mansion. Archie on the other hand, was an All-American Everykid, full of can-do  goofball positivity and High School joie de vivre. Now that I think about it, blonde Betty and brunette Veronica, who other than their hair color, looked like identical clones, may have been the dual poles of the Masonic lodge, i.e. Solomon's temple - the dark and the light. Wow, it seems as if Archie comics were full of references to secret societies and elite cabals and such, But, that's not what this article started out to explore, so I must digress away from this digression back to my main thesis.

Lovecraft's writing per se wasn't that great, but as horror goes, his ideas and stories were phenomenal. Erik Davis points out that Lovecraft used "science to provide frameworks for horror."  I will be using a lot from Erik Davis, mainly because he is an excellent researcher and writer and also because I am lazy and do not want to study "Lovecraft, the man," myself. This is a blog, not an academic research paper. I already have the theory that I want to expand on. Mr. Davis' work provides me with an excellent springboard from which to do so and I credit him for that.
 What I remember about reading Lovecraft as a kid, is that, while I was tremendously bored and confused, I was at the same time cognoscent of an underlying existentialist dread, that I could not quite, fully realize as a somewhat normal pre-adolescent kid.

Erik Davis, wrote Calling Cthulhu, HP Lovecraft's  Magick Realism, a piece in an anthology entitled Book of Lies, ed. by Michael Moynihan. Do I wish to recommend this book in any way? Surely not, as although the writing is at times superb, I do not agree with the underlying philosophy of the anthology which supports and is inspired by the work of you-know-who, and is a tribute to said person of ill-repute. Same for Mr. Davis, a brilliant researcher and excellent writer, with whom, alas, I cannot agree with regarding his concept that dualism needs to be brought into balance through "magically navigating" the polarities (there's those pesky Masonic pillars again) of Order and Chaos, Structure and Disintegration, all because the universe is basically amoral, or something like that.

It all fits together

Although Lovecraft was a self-proclaimed "mechanistic materialist" (Davis, 139), and not the least bit interested in spirituality or mysticism, professing "cosmic indifferentism" (Davis, 142), Lovecraft can be linked to both ritual magic and to  Crowley because he was, admittedly, heavily influenced by Golden Dawn member, and writer Arthur Machen.
Davis states that Lovecraft built worlds, created worlds, and that there is a whole gaggle of followers who have since developed Chaos magic rites and rituals based on his Cthulhu mythos, trying to conjure up Cthulhu and other creepsters from the Lovecraft canon. As in Crowley's work with ritual and symbolism, and Jung's work with archetypes and inner dialogue, Lovecraft opened up a place in the human experience for supernatural creatures to come forth. Davis also shows, that Lovecraft brought together the occult, quantum physics, psychology and existentialism.The idea of alienation is central to existentialism, and is yet another avenue toward moral relativism and the idea that there is no objective truth, no objective right or wrong, it is all relative to individual choice based on subjective experience - no good or evil - just different comfort zones.

Lovecraft's universe and creatures are often referred to as "amoral," as if his creatures are base animals, predators, who are just exercising their elemental way up and down the food chain. His creatures murder, torment, mutilate, demand blood sacrifices and cannibalize human beings, so I keep wondering how his falls into the category of amorality. Their very existence is an evil so palpable, that, more often than not, people are driven to insanity by one encounter. How is this amoral from a human perspective? Of course, it is not. But we are never really dealing with the human perspective here, are we?

We humans have a system of morality based on the idea of objective right and wrong. If there is no difference between right and wrong, than why bother doing right? For instance, if nothing is considered right or wrong, than why bother not taking life, why bother not killing another person or animal? Why not rape, since nothing is intrinsically immoral. An immoral person will always have a limited vision of the future and the possibilities contained therein, because when there is no inner context of truth or justice, there is literally, nothing to look forward to. Hence, "Monsters of the Id."

Jung's Man & His Symbols was published posthumously in 1964, furnishing a thesis with which to consider embracing monsters and such as emanations of the unconscious, thus paving the way for actualizing Lovecraft's creatures, affording them a cozy playground in psychoanalysis, and later, "transpersonal psychology." (Why not call it transhuman psychology, I wonder).
Additionally the  classic sci-fi movie Forbidden Planet came out in 1956. The film made such an impact on the science fiction film genre, that in 2013 it was entered into the Library of Congress' National Film Registry and is deemed a film of cultural, historical and aesthetic importance. Forbidden Planet is based on a concept right out of psychoanalysis, namely, "Monsters of the Id."[Brief synopsis: The base camp set up on another planet by people from earth is attacked by an invisible monster. The "monster" turns out to be issuing from one of the lead scientists on the mission's Id, aided and enhanced by alien technology.] Although Jung broke with Freud over the rigid structure of the unconscious that Freud proposed, this is just a variation of good cop/bad cop. From my perch it still looks like we are climbing one big, happy psychological family tree. Monsters and demons are coming from us, so psychology says, from our own unconscious, from ourselves, which contains some shred of truth to it, in that demons, do lodge themselves in the central nervous system and consequently affect brain chemistry. That is why, once they are firmly established in the central nervous system, et. al., it is very difficult to remove them, because they control the nerve centers in the brain which can cause confusion, dissociation, hallucinations and so on. That's why it benefits us NOT TO LET THEM IN, through experimenting with occultism, new age techniques and rituals, television and movies that manipulate the senses, etc. You also let them in when you break Almighty God's Holy Commandments, which is why they were written down in the first place, as guidelines for being able to live a wholesome and pleasant life on earth without disincarnate yyeeeeccchhhh entering in to it.

Back to Lovecraft, as mentioned, his human characters are driven mad by contact with his "amoral" creatures from the other dimensions.  As human beings, we have a natural instinct, aversion and repulsion toward evil (sorry comfort zone proponents). Making it seem as if there is no objective experience of evil, and also by attributing aversion to it as "fight or flight" syndrome, reducing our fear to an animal reflex (science and psychology cemented together in the same wall of nonsense), attempts to override our natural, God-given instinct to reject it for the very reasons that we sense that it is toxic, harmful and dangerous to us as humans. This is why Lucifer is called "The Enemy," or "The Adversary," in Christianity. This being and his cartel is the adversary of humanity, filled with jealously and rage at our wonderful creation, seeking to steal from, kill and destroy us -- as documented in the Bible.

Having worked with, and seen extreme mental illness in life, I would say that the main problem of the so-called "diseased" mind is fragmentation. Why wouldn't people become confused and fragmented by the type of circular thinking paraded before us in various literary, psychological, philosophical and art forms being constantly promoted by the corrupted world-society we now find ourselves in?  Added to that, the "field" of psychology "advanced" psycho-therapeutic  treatments by developing experiential therapies, such as Gestalt and hypnotherapy, that posit that inducing trance, confusion, dissociative, and other "altered" states are actually helping people heal their minds.

There are certain immutable cosmic and universal laws, that are God's laws, I don't profess to understand them. I believe that God's law includes free will, which is a paradox to our limited minds, and why, I suppose, we call it "The Mystery." Certain universal laws are originally fashioned by The Creator. These events and conditions exist within the laws of physics; the laws that science observes, abstracts and with that data then theorizes.  It is when conscious beings attempt to manipulate universal law and use it as matrices of invisible force that affect the entire field of a species, planet or world that this manipulation becomes an attempt to by-pass God, to override The Creator. This is ultimately the definition of black magic. God is good and never the author of confusion.

"For God is not the author of confusion, but of peace, as in all the churches of the saints."

 1 Corinthians 14:33

They Went Down to the Crossroads

 Minding the Minefield, Mining the Mindfield

 I had, a while back, an interaction with an ex-satanist who is very popular in the alternative movement right now, and whose work I mostly admired, except in one case. I came across a past radio interview that he'd done, in which he had given a glowing bio of Crowley as a person who'd contributed invaluable research to the field of metaphysics and should be appreciated for his pioneering ways in this area. At the beginning of the broadcast he directed people to "separate the man from his work," saying that to be able to do so  is a hallmark of mature, rational people.

Now I have already written about how tiresome I find the debate about whether or not Crowley was a trickster/jokester, media-toying huckster... also tired of the yammering about his being a chess master (yawn), mountaineer (double yawn), all around creative genius etc., etc., yawn, yawn, yawn. I do not believe that spin. I think that it is part of the double-cross, reverse psychology of evil to declare that evil is not evil, just something out of the ordinary. I believe that Crowley was not an evil master, but that he served evil, and like all good minions, he was double-crossed and thrown to the wolves (possibly literally in this case), Evil always consumes its own. Yet the clever occultist, besotted by his own false sense of power, will almost always, delusionally believe that they will circumnavigate this factor of how evil operates. Crowley deliberately mined the human unconscious, and he mined it in all senses of the word: He set landmines by embedding occult sigils, symbols and logos in his "work," and he also mined it by digging down into it to uncover things that he could use to enhance his own power and to open the doors for his peeps to get their foot into this world.

I emailed the radio guest expressing my distaste for his advocating for the Great Beast, and received a curt and mildly hostile reply to the effect that "he told [me, the listener] to separate the man from his work at the beginning of the broadcast."
I did not reply back, however I will say now: Just because someone tells me I should  separate a person 's individual life, history, personality and impact on society from their research does not mean that I have to. I disagree; I do not think that it is a mark of maturity to separate those things and I don't have to believe that a person is separate from those other elements that make up a lifetime. Says who? I also think that it is part of the moral relativism (that this particular radio personality dissects on a regular basis) to say that a person is not what they do, say, or how they act, but rather the quality of their research is what we need to really look at. Huh?

There has been open speculation as to whether Crowley and Carl Jung ever met, I wrote about the parallels between the two, with links to other people's research in another blog post: The Talented Mr. Crowley.

They may have never met in the flesh, but they met and their work was irrevocably intertwined in the work of cultural anthropologist Angeles Arrien, who died on April 24th, 2014, almost a year after I initially began the draft of this blog post.

Arrien, a internationally famous author, with a strong following among proponents of transpersonal (Jungian) psychology, wrote "The Tarot Handbook (TTH), Practical Applications of Ancient Visual Symbols."  This handbook focuses exclusively on the Thoth (Crowley) Tarot, and serves to whitewash the particularly demonic intent of this deck by reducing it to a study of Archetypal symbols and how they relate to self-help studies, human potential and personal growth. Arrien saw her work as bridging disciplines - the tarot is  presented as a psychology tool rather than occult practice.  In true new age form, Arrien's handbook reduces everything to an inner psychological process - the inner reflecting what is manifesting in the outer, based on the idea that the unconscious is driving all motivation and therefore perception, thereby creating reality. Except that, of cooouuurrrsse,  the most aware and enlightened, i.e. those that  work with this handbook all the time, can increase their inner awareness and thus decrease the deterministic aspect of a reading. All scary negative interpretations of cards, such as Crowley's designation for the 7 of Disks -"Failure" -  is changed in the Handbook to "fear of failure", 5 of Swords - Defeat - is changed to "fear of defeat",  Disappointment - "fear of disappointment", etc. All negatives are changed to a fear of the innate negative characteristics of a card, the implication being that by adjusting one's attitude one can alter one's fate, which is true in some sense, but does not really have a practical application in fortune telling and the like, because if people are interested in the hard work of changing they don't usually contact entities and consult psychics in the first place. Arrien's Handbook ignores the implicit evil in Crowley's work, rendering useless any critical analysis of his intricately woven subliminal traps by putting it all into the realm of self-help and introspection.
Did I mention entities? Because you can rest assured that the Crowley deck comes with its own crowd called up from the Astral that use the symbols as portals for entry into the human field. The individual tarot higher arcana are called Keys (for instance Key #2, The High Priestess), and they are literal keys in that they unlock a place in the mind for the symbols to be introduced. These particular cards were created in order to open up a space in the human body-mind complex for the lower astral and demonic realms to enter. That's my story and I am sticking to it. 

Co-opt the Symbols/Change the Meaning

TTH takes tarot out of the realm of fortunetelling and puts it into the pseudo-science of psychology, while totally ignoring the overtly occult aspect of the Thoth Tarot.This creates a diversion from the embedded content:
Crowley switched out cards 8 and 11, returning # 8 back to being Justice and assigning Key # 11, in the Strength spot, but calling it Lust. Crowley was an "11" numerologically, so he would want this type of perverse focus going into the occult aspect of his personal number. Coincidentally, Arrien died at age 74, which equals 11; her website states that she did not wish to have a memorial service, but rather that mourners should light a candle on the 24th of each month in the year that she died (2014) in her honor.
Crowley took out all of the kings and pages and changed the court cards to Prince and Princesses, so that the court stood as: Queens - mature women; Knights - mature men; and Princes and Princesses -  youths male or female. The psychology explanation for this is that it gives a more optimal approach to 'reading' male or female individuals populating one's life. If you consider that everything and everyone in your environment is mirroring your inner reality, then even if a Tarot card is referring to a person of the opposite sex in your reading, since that person is your consciousness being mirrored in your life circumstances, that still makes it, you, The Fool, who is seen in #0 as the person experiencing the "journey."

I wrote on the fool card back around 2003, when I was a complete (as opposed to a partial) IDIOT.I revisit this material in order to emphasize the pagan fertility cult, mystery school, sun worshiping base materialism implicit in the tarot, which many consider a spiritual path:

 Although the characters in the Tarot appear to change in each card, they are really all the same person—The Fool. The soul, taking the  sojourn called human life, changes form but remains at source, inviolable and without gender. The sun or manifestations of solar life - people, animals, plants, appear in every card. Without the life giving rays of the sun, without photosynthesis,  vegetative, biological life would not be, just as without the number zero, our system of mathematics would not exist. That is why the Tarot begins with card (also called “Key”) zero which faces left, or backwards, toward the last card, The World, which faces right at the end of the journey, thus closing the circle. The Fool's jacket is covered in green tendrils to show that s/he is the concentrated energy of the sun animated through the force of biology - the life force. The energy of the sun, worshiped as a god in almost every ancient culture, suffuses every aspect of  The Fool's tableau, from the bright white-light of the large solar disk, the mandala-like wheels which also appear on her jacket, and the bright yellow color.Although the Fool's path is life itself, the road does not end with death. Key #0 in the Thoth deck, designed with an egg-shaped ribbon looped around him - Shakespeare's "Mortal Coil"—spirals up into the next plane of existence. The journey of this life prepares us for the next one, as all successive travels will prepare us for the ones to come. 

That is the idea anyway, as put forth by the "intuitive arts". I believe that Crowley replaced Kings and Pages with Princes and Princesses for the following reason: Crowley was at heart, if not publicly, a Satanist and as such was into "Powers and Principalities" (Biblical) -as a ceremonial magician he worshiped the God of Forces. Lucifer is a "prince of the air"; the court card Prince of Swords, is literally a Prince of the Air, as the suite of swords in the tarot represents the element of air, or in psycho-babble, " the process of mentation." Crowley insisted the Lucifer of his deck had nothing to do with the Devil of Christianity (although all Satanists draw on Christianity for their own rites and rituals), instead seeing Lucifer as the Light Bringer - Bringing Illumination to all of mankind and liberating them from the forces of darkness and ignorance. This is the same philosophy underlying secret groups the likes of the Illuminati and where they derive their name and ethos. They consider themselves the holders of a superior light source, emanating from Lucifer. I've heard it said that all Illuminati are Luciferians, but not all satanists are Illuminati, or know that they are, in essence, Luciferians.

 Psychological Psychopomp or Satanist Psychopath?

Crowley changed the Devil card (Key 15) to 'Mirth'  and Arrien christened it  "The Principle of Mirth, Humour at what Bedevils us" ("The Tarot Handbook," California Institute of Integral Studies, 1987.)
Instead of the sinister looking Baphomet depicted in most subsequent cards succeeding the Marseilles deck, (the card featuring a man and woman chained to the devil), Thoth Tarot has a dopey cartoon looking goat - making the Devil a potentially benign concept and a mere internal process rather than a cosmic force of evil. When we drag things out into the light, the handbook states, they are not so scary and we see the humor in what appeared to initially be a dark situation, intimating that our ideas about good and evil are overblown and paranoid to begin with..

Crowley wrote of Key #15 in Liber 777:

The figure of Pan or Priapus

Golden Dawn description

This card should be studied in conjunction with No.l3. They are the two great controlling forces of the Universe, the centrifugal and the centripetal, destructive and reproductive, dynamic and static. The lower nature of man fears and hates the transmuting process; hence the chains binding the lesser
figures and the bestial forms of their lower limbs. Yet this very fear of change and disintegration is necessary to stabilise the life-force and preserve continuity. The colours are indigo, livid brown, golden brown and grey

from : http://supertarot.co.uk/777/devil.htm

 Arrien's TTH encourages the use of these cards for meditation. Affirmations (mind control) are provided to reinforce the "positive" aspect of the card.
The tarot is a solar pathway in the occult. It references the marriage of the sun and the moon, as befits its affiliation with the ancient fertility cults. 
 As others have pointed out, there are 78 cards in a tarot deck and the 78 signifies the marriage of the sun and moon. Card 7, the Charioteer, is aligned with Cancer and ruled by the moon. Card 8, was traditionally Strength and depicted a woman with a lion (Leo, a sun symbol) on a golden yellow card. This was before Crowley made it card 11 and renamed it Lust; Arrien's interpretation is that it is "Lustre" - an inner radiance that is enhanced by rubbing against the sharp edges of life.  7 + 8 = the marriage of the Sun and Moon as illustrated by the tarot cycle.

Crowley's cards reinforce the Kabbalistic overlay (An overlay is a perceptual field, not a real spiritual truth.) of our false reality. The sun serves as a  Sephiritic sphere, providing a lens and filter to allow in the the limitless light of the outer world, then refracts into the prism of colors which is called the seven rays of occultism. All occult doctrines are filtered through the lens of Kabbalistic tree of life Sephira, spheres which are the oppressive overlay that is often referred to as "the matrix." The first "The Matrix" movie was immediately recognized by occultists everywhere as an artistic powerhouse of occult lore.

In short, Crowley had to change the tarot and get princes ensconced firmly into it for the reasons previously state, i.e.,  that Lucifer, his main squeeze, is a "prince of the air" - see, the Thoth tarot is just another way to get Lucifer, the prince of darkness and his cartel of dark lords into pop metaphysics, most of which does not believe in a real devil, Satan or Lucifer, all seen as Archetypes rather than real supernatural beings, become part of our unacknowledged "shadow material;" which we need to embrace (Give it a big hug) in order to integrate it into our psyches and become whole. No, I don't believe this, I'm just explaining the spiel as it relates to this topic. It is all about the "transmuting power." I believe that Angeles Arrien unknowingly aided him in preparing humanity for the reign of the dark lords by believing that she was bridging cross-cultural symbolism with psychology. Come to think of it, the name Angeles means angels and Arrien contains the word Air or Aire (Old English spelling). So although it is her real name, it appears to be an anagram, of sorts, of "Angels in Aire" - if you can get one anagram from several different languages.

The Lyin', The Witch's Wardrobe & the Apocalypse

 Ghosts And The Machine 

It was my, mostly unsubstantiated by regular history, theory that occultist Aleister Crowley's job was to usher in the demonic kingdom that would lead to the end times battle as foretold in the book of Revelation. I believe that Crowley thought that in so doing he was working the "Great Work" of the master occultist, which is open to interpretation. It is now my revised theory that not only did Crowley leave the bulk of his work to the mass population by introducing his brand of occultism into pop culture, but that this work entailed the creation of the homunculus, golum, moonchild, cyborg, however you want to see it, on a large scale.  Crowley was of an age where he knew how Fabianism operated and knew that people could get inured to an occult agenda incrementally. His golum could be sold to John Q. Public over time through the process of genetic engineering which was yet to come, but which had been foreshadowed by Nazi genetic research during World War II.  Its end result-transhumanism, could create the type of synthetic person without a human soul that is the blunt description of what the sugarcoated term 'moonchild' really means.

Eliphas Levi, pretty much the progenitor of modern Western (Egyptian stream of alchemy) esoteric disciplines and ceremonial magic, expanded the originally alchemical concept to cover a broader range of occult practices:
From Wikipedia on Great Work:

...there exists in nature a force which is immeasurably more powerful than steam, and by means of which a single man, who knows how to adapt and direct it, might upset and alter the face of the world. This force was known to the ancients; it consists in a universal agent having equilibrium for its supreme law, while its direction is concerned immediately with the great arcanum of transcendental magic…This agent…is precisely that which the adepts of the middle ages denominated the first matter of the Great Work. The Gnostics represented it as the fiery body of the Holy Spirit; it was the object of adoration in the secret rites of the Sabbath and the Temple, under the hieroglyphic figure of Baphomet or the Androgyne of Mendes.
Lévi, Éliphas (1968). Transcendental Magic: its Doctrine and Ritual. Arthur Edward Waite...

 [Wiki goes on to say that Levi] defined it as such:

The Great Work is, before all things, the creation of man by himself, that is to say, the full and entire conquest of his faculties and his future; it is especially the perfect emancipation of his will [emphasis mine].^[2]

 Thelema, based on Crowley's philosophies of 'True Will'  further elaborated on the meaning of the Great Work - by tying in the concept of transcendence through the perfection of Will to ceremonial magic. In any event, I believe that Crowley never intended to complete the Great Work himself, which is why he left the Thoth Tarot legacy as a way for subsequent humanity to complete the work for him en masse. It needed that amount of psychical mass, or that vast a search engine, if you will. In other words, the Thoth Tarot was a tool to be used as a means of concentrating large quantities of focus and energy into the demonic and anti-human symbols that were necessary to open the doorways from the demonic realms into our earth and human existence. Crowley saw himself as the avatar of the antichrist, a liberator who would reconcile opposites by unleashing the creative forces of chaos upon the oppressive forces of convention: the same Luciferian light source of the Masons and Theosophists would shine upon the forces of ignorance and repression, liberating mankind from the prison of limitation and mortality. Crowley especially felt that Christianity embodied these repressive forces, denouncing Christianity as an age of a slave-god, soon to end, while inaugurating his chaos messiah, Horus, as the deity of the New Aeon.

From my perspective this has largely been accomplished by virtue of the fact that almost every aspect of earth civilization has become a vehicle for some sort of occult focus, including religions that do not consider themselves as practicing the occult. The Catholic Church, the Christian neo-Mystery Schools and Christian Hermeticism are steeped in Egyptian magic and mysticism. The word Hermetic comes from the Egyptian god Thoth-Hermes. Hermes Trismegistus is the Hellenic and Greek god Hermes of magic, and naturally became part of Roman paganism, too. This is why the "Crowley Tarot Deck," is officially named the 'Thoth' Tarot, even though it is lauded for its beautiful paintings depicting cross-cultural symbols. Cross-cultural if every culture has a morally ambivalent approach to matter and thereby the power generated through mass consciousness. Earth's leadership has also become populated, to use metaphor-speak, by opportunistic infections from all spiritual and pseudo-spiritual disciplines.

It IS Rocket Science

One of Crowley's helpful hints to a student in O.T.O. regarding ushering in his professed new age of liberty and light,was to encourage his protege Jack Parsons, the rocket science magus who developed jet propulsion and worked with the young L. Ron Hubbard as a ceremonial magician, to bring through the spirit of Babalon, the unrepentant whore who rides through Revelation 17:3-5. Parsons was to do this through an VIIIth Degree magical working of O.T.O. (Ordo Templi Orientis).

From Jack Parsons and the Fall of Babalon, by Paul Rydeen, an excellent tract on this affair:

 "Parsons wrote Crowley, "I have diligently followed the VIIIth Degree instructions as (a) creation of new orders of beings with consecrated talismanic images... Possible connective result: increase in writing output; (b) Invocation of Mother Goddess...  The rite ended with Parsons commanding the spirit to appear in human form...

and:

On February 23, 1946 Parsons triumphantly wrote to Crowley, "I have my elemental! She turned up one night after the conclusion of the Operation, and has been with me since." The Elemental was Marjorie Cameron.

Then:

[Early March 1946]... Parsons recorded in a letter to Crowley...  "I believe it was the result of the IXth Degree working with the girl who answered my elemental summons. I have been in direct communication with the one who is most Holy and Beautiful... I cannot write the name at present." Secretly he did write her name. He called her Babalon. ...In Liber 49 Babalon says she is the incestuous daughter of Nuit and Horus. Her avatar on earth is the Scarlet Woman.

 Which brings us to the witch, Marjorie Cameron. Parsons was disenchanted with human relationships and sexuality and wanted to bring forth an elemental mate made manifest through a human woman. He and Hubbard worked magic and materialized Marjorie Cameron through an acquaintance that brought her by their residence, the Pasadena house that Parsons had inherited from his father. Cameron went on to become Parsons' wife and priestess.
Parsons was greatly affected by working #VIII-which produced Cameron-who from then on participated in his O.T.O. magic.  Parsons was determined to produce the magical child, a.k.a. moonchild, a.k.a homunculous. Rydeen's book quotes from Crowley's Moonchild to explain the concept:

  [magicians, alchemists]... wanted very much to produce a man who should not be bound up in his heredity...

...they started in paraphysical ways...they repudiated natural generation altogether... ...made figures of brass, and tried to induce souls to indwell them. ... 

...other magicians sought to make this Homunculous in a way closer to nature... ... they had conjurations that they thought capable of doing this...  ... they would be able to cause the incarnation of beings of infinite  knowledge and power, who would be able to bring the whole world into Light and Truth."

There are several versions of how Parsons , Hubbard and Crowley (died in 1947) attempted to create the moonchild through the use of the atomic detonations - the blasts being a way to blow a hole in the fabric of reality, that, combined with incantations, and possibly an organic host formed from human tissue and fluids, would be the necessary formula for this fabrication. This bit of hocus pocus is historically recorded as fact, by the way.

  After a long downward spiral, during which Parsons lost everything, he was blown up in a 'mysterious' explosion in his home laboratory. That someone who played around with demonic forces and named himself the anti-christ after taking the 'Oath of the Abyss' would die in a horrible and torturous manner does not seem illogical, however. Parsons was blown up in a mercury fulminate explosion that tore up part of his jaw, tore off his arm, broke the other one and both of his legs, but he did not die until another 45 minutes had passed, and it has been hinted at that his death may likely have been a sacrifice to his goddess Babalon. As his partner in magic and scribe for a time, L. Ron Hubbard, poetically channeled years before Parsons' death:

"She is the flame of life, power of darkness, she destroys with a glance, she may take thy soul. She feeds upon the death of men... She will absorb thee, and thou shalt become living flame before she incarnates."

How like the famous quote by Robert Oppenheimer upon the detonation of the first atomic bomb at the Trinity site:

The sight of the terrible apparitional mushroom cloud climbing into the heavens made Oppenheimer remember a line from the Bhagavad Gita: ‘Now I am become death, the destroyer of the worlds’ (BhG.XI.32).

 
 Apparently those with their fingers on the triggers all have occult philosophies somewhere at the core of their thinking. Nice.

 Time Will Tell

Crowley must have known all along that magical workings of the magnitude in which he was mentoring Parsons had to have a sacrifice, or several, in order to succeed. Parsons was collateral damage, but from all accounts of his life, he was a willing victim, because he was drinking from the same font of  Kool-aid as Crowley. Except that Crowley (1875-1947) appears to have spat a lot of his out in the sink while no one was looking, because he managed to live well-beyond the life expectancy of someone with his penchant for risky business. Parsons is described in many Internet articles as a "failed magician," or sometimes a "successful rocket scientist but failed magician;" I would like to counterpoint these phrases with the idea that Parsons was a very successful magician, in that I believe that he did bring through the spirit of Babalon by rending the fabric of time and space to allow a way for the demonic energies that used him to come through. Problem was Parsons didn't see them as demonic, he believed the Crowley propaganda that O.T.O. magic was liberating mankind from the repressive forces of the Judeo-Christian paradigm. Oooppsss... excepting that the type of demonic forces , the Luciferian, chaos-forces are part of that very same Judeo-Christian paradigm. Interesting how that works like that. The fact that they were using the Scarlet Woman and the Whore of Babylon as feminine archetypes shows that Crowley was totally into assisting his hyper-dimensional masters in ushering in the Apocalypse, the very same one that is in the book of Revelation, yes, in the Bible, the Christian Bible, of which the Old Testament is about the Hebrew Judaean culture before the arrival of Jesus Christ. Parsons was used and ultimately sacrificed his life and possibly his soul so that Crowley and company's agenda could be carried out, an occult agenda on which H.P. Blavatsky was an interesting highlight, bringing in the necessary esoteric meme to introduce the agenda to modern society, and spurring on the research of the Golden Dawn. The GD did the legwork for Crowley, so that he could, when the time and technology was right, open the way for his New Aeon. Parsons' big fallacy, apart from being used as a human sacrifice, was that he thought that he was going to impregnate wife Marjorie Cameron in the usual human biological way and that she would give birth to an actual organic hybrid of some sort.

The thing to be considered for me in knowing about the Babalon working and the invocation of both the Goddess Babalon (who is likened to Nuit, Kali, Isis, etc.) and the creation of a magical person formed by art, not by God, is what did they bring through the veil? Because if they summoned Babalon, who has been illustrated well enough through the journals of Jack Parsons, Crowley and Hubbard, into this world, and 'she' is here, that means that the spirit of all that she embodies and her role in the Apocalypse is alive in the world and aiding to unfold the agenda to destroy life as we know it. When magicians rend the fabric of time and space, they do so against the forces of nature, not with them, and that which occurs is likely to go, as they say, sideways - the result being unpredictable, uncomfortable, disastrous. As one of the article links points out - to blow apart time, space and primordial matter is to blow apart the union of opposites. This is what is required to usher in the age of rebellion - the one against the other. That is the spirit of Luciferianism -  the all war, all unrest, all chaos, -all the time channel. There is a reason people in the occult are called 'channels' and why radio wave and cathode tube technology were 'discovered' concurrently with the rise of Victorian spiritualism - seances, channeling, spirit trumpets and the like. It is because spirits reside on and communicate through the same invisible frequencies as broadcast technologies.
A lot has been written about Marjorie Cameron, and there is a strong revival of interest in her art work, a new biography, etc. She is considered by the arty and occult-oriented, who are often one and the same nowadays, as a chic, creative force and a kind of  early feminist, in that she was a champion of women's personal liberation and sexual liberation. Her life in retrospect was besieged with financial problems, and as an artist by frustration and obscurity; she eventually remarried after Parsons - and conceived a daughter with a mentally ill guy who committed suicide (Note to self: She was also a 'successful magician'). Cameron was recently featured in a brief article in W magazine ( Fashion bible of the Jet Set, I've read). News Flash: Hollywood, L.A. and the entertainment industry are influenced by occultism and witchcraft.  So whether or not Cameron really became Babalon incarnate and gave birth to the moonchild on the astral plane, as she claimed to have done years after the official Babalon working, she can truly claim to be one of Hell's Belles.

 Titled: CAMERONS [SIC] INFLUENCE SEEN AT SAINT LAURENT SPRING 2013 RUNWAY

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A Bit of Testimony*

I became a born-again Christian at the end of 2012, beginning of 2013, in large part because of my many supernatural experiences, which I was just too dense to "get" for almost my entire life up until recently, in 2015. I stupidly thought that spiritual warfare occurred between two beings; I thought that "I" was fighting the out-of-body attacker. I no longer believe in practicing astral travel, depth psychology, reincarnation, astrology, numerology, tarot, kabbalah, channeling or anything of that nature, except as devices of satan and the dark side. Yes, I believe in a literal satan/lucifer/devil and I don't care if the world thinks that I am crazy, stupid, etc. My beliefs are based on my own experiences and the experience of salvation as offered and given to me by Jesus Christ. Astral travel is powered by demons, who want you cut loose in their spiritual worlds (the lower heavens) so they can destroy you physically, mentally and spiritually. I, (and anyone around me) have only been protected from demonic malice and shenanigans by the Lord, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit that takes up residence and indwells in those who call upon the Lord; that is where the glory goes, and it is that which has saved me from destruction, death and from being lost forever spiritually, countless times, and countless other times that I don't even know about. May God bless anyone reading this and may you find the Truth of God, soon, before your time is up.

Canine Night Vision

The Forces of Dog

In a dream Josie was with me as a little kid, running though golden, mid-western fields. The little girl me says, "I wish Josie would have really been my dog when I was a kid; she would have been perfect for me." 

Some people say that animals don't have emotions as we humans do, that we project our own dramatic feelings onto dogs and such, and that when they do seem to exhibit human emotions that it is just an automatic reaction coming from instinct."Oh, that's just animal instinct," they say, as if instinct is just some sort of base component of a lesser species. Instinct is the higher, the spiritual intelligence of the animal. We people are estranged from this intelligence because of the unnatural way in which we have become accustomed to living.

 Dogs don't have a front brain, even though they would probably like one because they are always trying to communicate verbally with humans, who are mostly too dense to interpret dog-language even after hundreds of years of dog/human interaction. Animals respond emotionally all of the time. Because there is no analytical function to analyze a response before expressing it, there is no delay between experience and expression. When you do something that an animal does not like, that hurts or threatens it, it will immediately let you know. There is no social filter analyzing if it would be impolite to, say, try and bite your ankle after you just stepped on its paw trying to go around it in the hallway. There is no part of the animal mind that is invested in trying to convince other parts that is is imagining things, hallucinating, or overreacting. For that reason they are more in direct contact with reality and more present on the physical plane, than we are.

 Anyone that has owned a dog like a Border Collie or Australian Shepherd knows that they smile from ear to ear when they are happy. The joy emanating from them at these times is so palpable that it is impossible to escape the notice of even the most emotionally oblivious of us.  That's why they have dog therapy (for humans) as a private therapy and in institutions now. Dogs are full of warmth and love, which is why we cannot resist a puppy, and why dog lovers will go the extra mile for the care and protection of dogs. Dog lovers don't just love dogs, they adore them, idolize them; a form of idolatry that marketing execs in turn, adore.

EVIL'S LOOPHOLE

Moral Relativism & The Sticky Philosophy of New Age

When Life Gives you Poison - Make Poisonade.

Why is it always ex-satanists like Mark Passio that articulate the specific methods of world-domination used by global elites so succinctly and with such insight? Probably because Luciferians and Satanists have been on the inside track within the philosophical outpourings and rhetoric of the New Age movement since Illuminist operative H.P. Blavatsky founded Theosophy and subsequently spawned its conduit Victorian Spiritualism. Passio identifies the introduction of  moral relativism, or the idea that there is no such thing as objective right or wrong as the major avenue for laying the ground in which to plant the seeds of a conscienceless, fear-filled Psychopathic society in "the dead," as the master controllers refer to us. Passio's work focuses on key methods of indoctrinating us into the total-control matrix:
1) Mind Control and hypnosis through repetition of  key ideas and symbols into the collective.
2) Social Darwinism - the idea that the strongest (read supermen) are the smartest, therefore most powerful, and the fittest and deserve to rule.
3) The institutionalization of Psychopathic thinking embedded in education, medicine, government, etc.

The ruling elite, Illuminati, whatever they are called, operates on the basis that they are genetically (that is where the bloodline ideologies come in) and intellectually superior to other-than-them humans and therefore deserve to squeeze every last drop of power, advantage and privilege out of the lower orders and the sweat of their brow. If genetic superiority is the theory, then Eugenics is the practice.

The sinkhole of Moral Relativism can generally be summed up by its main mushy polemic: 'what is right for me is right;' it's all a matter of choice. This is essential to the mish-mosh being created to destroy critical thinking, because critical thinking is essential to all-over human self-preservation.

New Age ascension spirituality echoes the idea of an advanced race of  evolved humans who have changed their "vibration," i.e. raised it,  which will polarize them from the lower vibrational, negative masses (me), and propel them to a new earth or "new earth star" where they and others like them will live in some sort (varies) of golden age, where there is no death (usually).

Roger Morneau, a Christian author who died in 1998, was inducted into a satanist cult while a young blue collar worker living in Montreal right after WW II. Morneau logged hours of video interviews, now available on You Tube (Full Length), about his dealings with upper-class satanist society in Montreal. There is one particular part of his documentary (it appears to have been done in the early to mid-1980s') in which Morneau tells of the high priest of the cult explaining the dark-side incremental plan that was put forth at a "Council of the 1700s." According to Morneau, that infernal conference included the plan of taking hypnotism out of the realm of the occult and getting people to accept it as medical science for the benefit of mankind; and promoting Darwinism/ the theory of evolution as a means of refuting the Bible, which would make Christians question their faith, while at the same time entrenching humanity into the idea of materialism as the sole essence of existence. Another track was convincing people that necromancy (talking to the dead) is an average human experience, which gave rise to Blavatsky's channeling-entities fad which launched the New Age movement, which gave rise to saying that there is no God nor the devil, which was revised to mean no good or evil, which became moral relativism, which put down tracks for Novus Ordo Seclorum, or: A New Order of the Ages, and now I have come full circle.

Because part of getting people to not believe in God is to get them to not believe in satan, but first they have to believe that good and evil are relative and subjective: it's all about your comfort zone. Church of Satan founder Anton LeVey developed the high profile satanist party line to a T: pretending to not believe in the Judeo-Christian devil, while developing the black mass which is a reverse Catholic mass, writing a satanic bible which is the antithesis of the Christian Bible, all the while paying tribute to said devil by practicing dark occultism and cursing people. LeVey promoted satanism as, what you'd call a system of guidelines, for living an Ayn Rand "enlightened self-interest" type of philosophy. This is the paradox of satanism, because to really serve evil you have to be part of the movement to convince people that there is no good or evil; these are merely concepts developed by organized religions to control people and limit our freedom [to take whatever we want, from whomever we want, whenever we want, without guilt].

 Hitting the Psy-Optic Nerve

Back to Roger Morneau: he became a 7th Day Adventist, and one thing that he does explain to me at the very least is why Adventists worship on Saturday rather than Sundays. As Morneau explains, the high priest told him that Christians were duped into worshiping on Sundays as homage to satan, because Sunday was his day, as Lucifer "the brightest and most magnificent" was personified as the sun in pagan-civilization sun worship. 

It does seem that the serpent wisdom, or illumination, that is said to have been bestowed upon man by Lucifer, was observed early on as sun-god worship. I think that Luciferians have always sought communion with what they see as the massive spiritual intelligence of the Sun, and that way back there in ancient Egypt (the source of Western occultism), when  Akhenaton introduced monotheism in the form of Aton the sun-disk, it was the initial appearance of a unified Luciferianism and the beginning of the Illumined ones, or Illuminati. This explains to me why there is so much energy going into the contemporary "expose" that the Son of God, Jesus Christ is just an adaptation of the worship of ancient sun-gods like Apollo, etc. Excepting that there are plenty of theologians that can refute the idea that Jesus Christ was just another sun-god in a long succession of pagan gods emanating from the "solar logos." This is just another way of reducing all spiritual urges to materialism and distilling down faith-based beliefs to primitive superstitions that were later turned into profit-based schemes, again falsely concluding that all human endeavor toward spiritual understanding is really based in materialism, the religion of the Illuminati.

 The main thrust of novus ordo seclorum has to do with "the end of duality" and an "ascent" into something called unity consciousness which is often, in a nod to the scientific, correlated to  Einstein's unified field theory. Another brilliant scientific mind,, Terence McKenna, an ethno-botanist with  advanced-for-his-time computer geeking abilities graphed an algorithmic theory, Time Wave Theory that viewed the universe in waves that peaked and valley-ed along a continuum of novelty: consciousness seeks novel ways to express life and in doing so becomes innovative. McKenna's work was naturally immediately worked into the cultural directive of moral relativism.
 The late-60's counterculture provided the petri dish in which to foment the state of disintegration and alienation that pulled at the threads that led to our current state of disarray... 

 Podcast

From Harvard to Esalen, the Social Engineers Part I

by James Bravewolf

Southern California: Cradle of Civilization

Annette Funicello and Frankie Avalon:

Esalen - in the mid-80s a friend got me a scholarship to do a workshop on "process painting" there. I did not know what Esalen was exactly, or the reputation that it had, although I had some ideas that that it was considered to be doing cutting-edge work in the field of psychology.  It has since been revealed by alternative historians that "cathartic" release therapies made the first inroads into getting the public to genuinely participate with our own mass trauma based mind control:

Confusion technique (from the Milton H. Erickson Wiki Page)

In all my techniques, almost all, there is a confusion.^[11]

A confused person has their conscious mind busy and occupied, and is very much inclined to draw upon unconscious learnings to make sense of things. A confused person is in a trance of their own making - and therefore goes readily into that trance without resistance. Confusion might be created by ambiguous words, complex or endless sentences, pattern interruption or a myriad of other techniques to incite transderivational searches.
Scottish surgeon James Braid, who coined the term "hypnotism", claimed that focused attention was essential for creating hypnotic trances; indeed, his thesis was that hypnosis was in essence a state of extreme focus. But it can be difficult for people racked by pain, fear or suspicion to focus on anything at all. Thus other techniques for inducing trance become important, or as Erickson explained:

... long and frequent use of the confusion technique has many times effected exceedingly rapid hypnotic inductions under unfavourable conditions such as acute pain of terminal malignant disease and in persons interested but hostile, aggressive, and resistant...

and:

 Abstract from Trance and confusion in Gestalt therapy by Robert C. Wright, M.S.

This article introduces hypnotic principles of confusion and trance as fundamental operations in Gestalt therapy. A process is identified which utilizes perceptual shifts of reference as a method of organizing Gestalt techniques. The sequence of operations constituting the confusion process is outlined and developed in a psychotherapy session through the use of implication, dissociation, and embodiment. The development of this organization of Gestalt therapy is intended to enhance the strategic capacities of therapists.

Gestalt therapy and other forms of cathartic therapies exploded into the "process therapy movement" of the late 80s and 90s,  emphasizing recapitulating the feelings surrounding early trauma and then purging them through catharsis. In Gestalt therapy, a technique called the "hot seat" was employed where a group focuses on someone in a searingly open and pointed manner, purportedly causing the person to crack their repressed facade (is there any other kind) and "release" the real pent up emotions (usually anger that could not be safely expressed at the time of the original trauma) behind the mask. I have seen this technique demonstrated and I have seen and felt firsthand  how it fits into confusing people about the standards of decent behavior.  A person with normal human decency senses that it is wrong and abusive to be brutally honest and push a vulnerable person past their limits, but because you are being trained by expert glamour-puss therapists, it somehow makes it seem OK, because it is ultimately for their own good mental health.

Fritz Perls was also reputedly a front person for work being done at the Tavistock Institute where he helped initiate "sensitivity training" as a legitimate psycho-therapeutic field of study. Tavistock is a think tank for studies pertaining to mind control and manipulation, operating under the guise of a "cutting edge" psychology research foundation. "Coincidentally," Tavistock is also linked with the Eugenics movement in early 20th century England.

But I did not know the full history of Esalen at the time; I only knew that I had an opportunity to stay in Big Sur, a breathtakingly beautiful area where the cliffs and the ocean meet in Southern California. I could see whales spouting out in the ocean from the cliffs above Esalen, where I was there to stay for 2 weeks - ten days of which was "The Painting Experience," where I got to paint all day uninterrupted, while the facilitators kept my supplies replenished and mixed the paint for the attendees, allowing us to focus on nothing but pure creative expression. The dark side takes up occupancy in the most beautiful areas of the planet. It is part of the whole seductiveness of evil thing.I get it now.

At one day's dinner announcement they told us that the massage trainees were being trained in a newish program, which at that time I think they were calling Sensual Massage - This was a type of massage that addressed issues of sexuality. The therapist did loving, sensuous touch  to the client, like kissing them and turning them on, some erotic touch ( I didn't quite know what that meant, but I assumed it was subtle), but see, the client works through their sexual issues by seeing that they can get all turned on while keeping a safe therapeutic relationship with their sex worker therapist. The kicker was: they were practicing outside in plain view on the Esalen spa grounds. We were told at the announcement that we needed to be discreet and give these therapeutic relationships space and quiet if we noticed them in our vicinity.

Detect them in my vicinity, I did, as mostly these healing tableau were taking place 20 feet away, where in full line of vision were couples in various states of healing, working on their blocks to intimacy. This seemed voyeuristic to me, and an invasion of my privacy, while at the same time creating an inner conflict because I was supposed to be worried about invading their privacy and disrupting their process. You could choose to have this treatment sans the eroticism but no one seemed to be ordering from that side of the menu.The ineffable sexual tension was so heavy, that had it become effable you could have bottled the formula and sold it to commercial construction developers. On the way back to my guesthouse, I would hear people rustling around in the bushes beside the trail. I called these encounters "bush therapy," a joke only I found HI-LAR-I-OUS, if you can believe it.,

All of the therapists were female and all of the clients were male as far as I could tell, and when I asked what was the difference between this new healing modality and the standard hooker/john relationship, I was told that both the therapist and client were working out their  sexual issues.  Again: "what is the difference between this and the standard... ?" Blank look, hostile silence. In those days, I did not feel that I could afford to be "negative"  while  joyriding courtesy of the SoCal elite.So I didn't push it.

Annette Funicello (October 22, 1942 – April 8, 2013)

I became a born-again Christian at the end of 2012, beginning of 2013, in large part because of my many supernatural experiences, which I was just too dense to "get" for almost my entire life up until recently, in 2015. I stupidly thought that spiritual warfare occurred between two beings; I thought that "I" was fighting the out-of-body attacker. I no longer believe in practicing astral travel, depth psychology, reincarnation, astrology, numerology, tarot, kabbalah, channeling or anything of that nature, except as devices of satan and the dark side. Yes, I believe in a literal satan/lucifer/devil and I don't care if the world thinks that I am crazy, stupid, etc. My beliefs are based on my own experiences and the experience of salvation as offered and given to me by Jesus Christ. Astral travel is powered by demons, who want you cut loose in their spiritual worlds (the lower heavens) so they can destroy you physically, mentally and spiritually. I, (and anyone around me) have only been protected from demonic malice and shenanigans by the Lord, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit that takes up residence and indwells in those who call upon the Lord; that is where the glory goes, and it is that which has saved me from destruction, death and from being lost forever spiritually, countless times, and countless other times that I don't even know about. May God bless anyone reading this and may you find the Truth of God, soon, before your time is up.